It seems time has gotten away from me and it’s been awhile since my last post. The life of having a one year old is not what I remember when Isaac was this age. Granted I didn’t have a career back then. I didn’t serve on the PTA as a chairperson. I didn’t write a blog. I don’t even remember having this many chores; laundry is never ending, the dish washer is full every day, there are toys that scatter my house, not to mention all this SNOW! I just pretty much sat around playing with my baby.
The best part of having a one year old again, is watching him grow. One of the biggest reasons we chose domestic infant adoption was, although I had a biological child, Joe became a step dad when Isaac was 6 years old. He was not there for the milestones that come with a baby. I wanted him to experience the joys of being called dad and understanding the kind of love you get when you bring a baby home from the hospital and are present for every first.
Ezra just started walking. That was a milestone I was so excited for, yet so sad when it happened! My little baby, likely our last child, was growing up. It’s like the ultimate transitional milestone from being a baby to a toddler/kid. I was so excited when he lifted his head the first time, or smiled the first time, that first laugh, first bite of cereal, first roll, first crawl, first word, first stand… but first WALK!?!
Experiencing milestones gives me so much joy. It’s when I see him the most as MY son. My beaming pride, the look of adoration on my husband’s face, the clapping and cheering that comes from my older son, Isaac; it is all part of parenting and being a family.
When a couple faces infertility or enters the realm of adoption, milestones may be something they fear they will never get to experience. I guarantee no matter if you adopt an infant or through foster care, there will be a lifetime of firsts that bring smiles and tears.
A Year of Ezra!
Wow, a whole year has passed… really? It seems like this has been the fastest year of my life. It seems like just yesterday that that little baby was still in T’s belly. It seems like just yesterday I fearfully attended doctor visits with her and made trips to the hospital for amniotic fluid checks, wondering what day he would come and would she really be able to let him go? I can’t imagine the pain she had, even knowing the choice she made was going to allow her the ability to give more to the children she was parenting and to him at the same time. What kind of selfless love is that? The strength in her and J’s choice astounds me.
So as I celebrate his day of birth, I also will be taking a moment to mourn their loss with them. I thank God every day that through the miracle of open adoption I get to share him with them still. They can see him periodically, text or call when ever they want, follow him daily with the countless pictures, videos and statues I post on Facebook. I am thankful that when the day come that he starts asking questions, he will already know the love they have for him. They hug him and kiss him and tell him they love him every time they see him. He will already know them and his biological siblings, before he even knows how to verbalize his questions. He’ll never have to search. How amazing is that?
As Ezra has reached this giant milestone of turning ONE today, (*sigh, cry, weep, sniffle, smile, cry again*) I want to thank his first parents for trusting us and our family to love him as much as they do. Not a day goes by that we don’t think of them. This year has been such an amazing journey for us. Our family has grown in ways more than just being a family of 4 now. We have learned our strengths, our weaknesses and our endless love for each other. We have watched this little, once helpless infant, learn to smile, “talk”, crawl, feed himself, test us, giggle, and now walk! He now enters toddler-hood! A new phase and a new stage. Where has time gone lil’ man?
Happy Birthday Ezra Joseph! You are loved by more people than you will ever know or understand. You are our precious little boy and the child that completed our family. I love watching you with daddy and your big brother. You are an awesome kid and I can’t wait to watch you grow into a young man just like I have watched Isaac over the last 12 years!
Stay tuned for birthday cake and party pictures. 🙂